On The Other hand

I  have very mixed and confused feelings about Spain, I  have lost 100,'s of 1000,00 of £ GBP in Spain, and yet I  feel happy and relaxed when in Spain, as I  said last week was a mission to see my solicitor because I  never broke any laws or committed any crimes that I'm aware of, and yet I  got a court summons, so I  wanted to get the matter wrapped up and concluded, All I  seem to have lately are problems and bills from Spain, Torrevieja is beautiful, I  really like Torrevieja, it's majestic, clean, romantic, vibrant, sexy and yet still relaxing. I  would be happy to sit in the harbour, enjoy the sun and a beer everyday, if I  could., but I  can't, I  have to work every day.

I  don't spend much time in Torrevieja for practical reasons, in real life, when in Spain I'm at Villamartin, unfortunately it's been neglected there lately, it has a beautiful square by two fantastic golf courses, in a wonderful location near so many great things, BUT the Villamartin square is very dirty and tired, it's needs repairing and cleaning, the businesses seem unconcerned, maybe now nonchalant after a few years of bad trade, but the trade is not helped by the run down and neglected appearance, I  realize that it's easy to criticise but I  also feel it would be an easy problem to fix. Now things are so bad in public areas that I  would be embarrassed to take member's of my family there, when I  used to be proud, I'm now ashamed and embarrassed at the filth and neglect. Most mornings if I  go to my local café for breakfast on  the square there is broken glass on the floor, lots of it, and many places the floor has fresh blood, not the amount of a cut finger, but a lot!.

When I  go to town, Villamartin, or Caba Roig, there are very few Spanish, or Spanish things, the brits have made almost every bar a run down, empty bar showing sports all of the time, or disco music, thousands of them all copying each other, all the same, and all nearly devoid of customers and being surprised . No Spanish is spoken, the signs are in English and they serve low quality food (with very few exceptions). Caba Roig is the nearest I  have to town, it used to be great, but now it's all Chinese supermarkets selling low quality goods, Russian bars, and English "sports" bars each with it's own couple of fat English guys sitting about all day, and hardly ay other customers

On the other hand, the day before I  have to fly back to England I  went to the beach (5 minutes away), it was nicely busy, not crowded, but vibrant and exciting, I  had a beer from a bar on the beach, for the same price as I  pay in my local pub, but this was much better, ice cold, lovely view and fresh air, I  went in the sea, it was crystal clear, calm, and warm, like a bath, it would make me take up religion or something, it was so beautiful. So I'm confused, I  have contradictory feelings

The blobs in the water are fishes, they are so close you can stroke them, the water must be clean and healthy for the fish to be so abundant, They look strong and healthy, this seems like paradise to me and I  never knew anything better.